I see frolicking horses in my memories

Today I feel like Powder. Draw your own conclusions.

Breaking the silence with a movie or three

TribesMovies dot com. I feel whole again.

Take my hand you say

Bare feet step silently towards me, your long dress gently moving with your graceful strides. You reach your hand out to me, palm up, a gesture of guidance. You've got this confident smile on your face, something reassuring starts to build up inside me as I get up. You're amazing to me. We walk down the stairs off the porch, hand in hand. You turn your head back to smile again, a moment etched in my mind forever. That smile, so seductive, so personal. I'm battling to keep up as you break out into a sprint. I feel clumsy, but I'm still having fun. You're laughing now, it's contagious. With all our clothes on, you pull me into the water, I'm careless now. In these pleasant waters you told me, and I was breath-taken. Drowned in the waters of your emotion. Where we're going, we don't need air to breathe.

Funny things happen to funny people

On saturday night, I met a girl I was destined to meet at some point. It was arranged, so to say.

I didn't get many opportunities (or rather, I didn't MAKE many opportunities) to chat to her, but when I did, I enjoyed her company, her friendly outlook on life.

The night danced on and she was flirting with everyone, including me. I liked her. Butterflies et al.

I struck up a conversation with our mutual friend, expressing my interest in this girl to which I got the following response: Shaun, she's not the long-term-relationship-kinda-girl, she's more of a party girl, so if you want her, she's more than available.. My jaw dropped.

A huge steel door dropped from the ceiling of the narrow vaulted passageway between us. My interest sagged like a walk-the-plank type plank with a fat pirate on the end.

So it got me thinking today, why? Why the sudden loss of interest after hearing she was the one-night-stand-type? And as a close friend pointed out: Why write her off based on someone else's statement?

It made me think of past relationships, it made me think of trust. Could I trust a girl who has such a reputation? It made me think of love vs. lust. Do I want to be seen as another bomb icon on the hood of her tight air-frame? Do I want to come across as a guy who's just out to shag? No! I want the whole deal, Serious Sam I am.

FFS, why does life, love and maybe even lust have to be so complicated for me. Anyway, clear points arose: Don't be so quick to judge, Listen to uncle Jay when he says: Don't believe everything you hear or read if it doesn't agree with your own common sense, and of course: Lighten the fuck up and find out for myself.